Friday, April 11, 2008

Freddie the Frog

Look at me. I'm so old and shrivelled and gross. But don't you
worry about that. I'm here to tell you about Freddie the Frog.

Freddie the Frog was the most amazing frog there ever was. He was
normal-looking, sure. But inside, he was special. Because I am so
old and shrivelled and gross, I am not going to be able to explain to
you in a way that gets across to you the fundamental truth of how
special Freddie was.

Freddie the Frog usually sat on a medium-sized rock down at the
creek, at the dead-end of an upper-middle-class neighborhood in
New England. He sat there, all through sunny June,
blinding July, and swampy August, just dreaming. Freddie closed his
eyes and felt unbounded space. The robins and cicadas and wind in the
birch trees echoed in his head -- textures in the emptiness that constituted him.

He ate things. He caught flies. Sometimes he swam. But Freddie
was magnificent for his flights of imagination. He did not realize
that he was merely a frog. He experienced himself as a thoroughly enjoyable,
surprising process.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Contact Points

My tires are deflated. They're flat and tired-looking.
I'm sliding around the road. I'm smudging everything I
run across. My contact with the world is soft, messy, blurred.
I make ugly turns. You hear the rubber smearing against the
asphalt like oversized galoshes. I lack air.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

An Evening Alone in My Dreams

Wet cement in shadows
impenetrable haze and smog.
Everything dripping, it's
much too hard to go anywhere.
The lenses in my glasses popping
out and falling on the ground. I
step on them. There are no
optometrists left.

Friday, March 14, 2008

No Helmet

We have to get on the motorcycle now. The man driving the motorcycle
motions for me to put my hands around his waist. He's fat and
he smells like food. The motorcycle takes off and I have to press
my face into his shoulder, into the plaid print of his flannel shirt.
I have no idea where we're going.

Friday, February 29, 2008

The Tragedy of the Quotidian

Reading, writing, shitting.
Close the stall door, pull out the sanitary guard, sit down.
Reading, writing, shitting.

The radio, the paper thrown out of a truck with its headlights on
driving slowly down the street in the dark, the computer screen,
the newstand,the cable news program -- all of these people trying
to tell us what is happening.

Eat, sleep, drive, lock the door.

Sunday, February 24, 2008


Listening to Led Zeppelin on a walkman with four hours of batteries left
somewhere over Central Asia. On our next flight we'll see Everest, off to the

Continental plates drifting and crashing, tidal waves erasing, mangrove forests sinking.
A tiger paddling through brown water.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

A Grey Thursday

Freezing in my underpants. Half a bagel uneaten.
The crows outside are waiting for me to give up so that
they can eat my eyeballs. Ocular juice drizzling down their
beaks, matting down their mangy feathers.
It's just breakfast.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Morning Person

Not able to wake up. I keep on losing my glasses in my dreams. My eyelids don't open all the way. Things are too dark and I feel like it's sort of my fault.

But then I'm awake and useless and huge. Hair and skin and a clouded mind. Slightly off balance stepping out of bed. Reaching out to steady myself. The first glimpse into the mirror. That's who I am, still, again, for a little while longer.

Monday Evening

Nothing lasts.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Eight and a half hours

Trying to sleep, but beset with completely unauthorized dreams. These things are not supposed to happen. A piece of peanut left lodged in my molar, released by an exploring tongue. An imagined wet, pink theater of improbable activity. The space of the mouth is flipped by flipping the tongue.

It's nothing but taking out the trash. Nothing but the janitorial services of the mind, dressed in grey jumpsuits, handling unacceptable needs. Best not to dwell on these things. Best to let them go. Dreams are meant to be forgotten. That's why we forget them. Except when we don't.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

The Animated Beast

Darkness and the liquid stillness of fifteen minutes before one in the morning.
A collection of inert objects before me on the table, just my fingers restless still.
The raw materials of the earth, brought to life through the magic of nerve and muscle.

Saturday, February 9, 2008



I Like Frosted Shredded Wheat

I prefer Frosted Shredded Wheat in the mornings.
I like my cereal slightly détrempé,
a sweet pabulum that I spoon into my pink hole,
soft and visqueux, sodden with milk, it goes down easy.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

The Will to Power

Silly man needs to pee.
Silly man little wee-wee.

Silly man cough cough cough.
Silly man, he's had enough.

Silly man needs to go now.
Silly man is shrinking.

Secure My Borders

Why is my phlegm bloody?
Sanguis, lentus, I am so sick.
My middles, they feel shitty.

The spicy food hurts me.
My little radio keeps talking.
I woke up spitting.

Super Wednesday

Camomile tea with lots of honey for my throat,
reading Capital in my pajamas with the chills
from fighting off the flu.

The grapefruit juice burning as it goes down,
fessus, fessus, fessus,
fastidium, fastidium, fastidium.

Awake and pissing away my time
into the 1.4 L gpf urinal,
wandering back through towers,
reading the words Deloitte & Touche
in the sky.